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“I Kissed A Girl And I Liked It” — Forever Gay?

  2 weeks ago     15404 Views     Leave your thoughts  

Well, this one's going to be a little awkward (mostly for me, ha). But I felt like I needed to write it. So here goes nothing. I seriously never thought this would happen. Ever. Even after becoming a Christian and learning about the power of God, believing in the power of God, and even seeing the power of God at work in my life in different ways – I still never saw this coming. Early on in my blogging days I was more than emphatic (as many of you probably can give witness to) about the fact that sexual desires aren’t…

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Jesus Is Enough. I Don’t Fully Believe That, But I’m Trying.

  3 weeks ago     1875 Views     Leave your thoughts  

There’s nothing more moving to me than to see a Christian, in the midst of deep suffering, sacrifice and pain, say with all their heart and soul that Jesus is enough. I so wish to be that kind of follower of Christ. But if I can be totally honest with you guys (and I can, because this is my blog and I can do what I want) – I am the furthest from being that kind of Christian. I mean, sometimes I feel like I am. When everything vocationally, relationally, and circumstantially is going in my direction, I tell myself…

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What Real Freedom From Homosexuality Looks Like

  1 month ago     6760 Views     Leave your thoughts  

I'm sitting here at Starbucks with the word document open... and blank. Wishing I had something to write about. I mean, I do. I have a lot of things going on in my life right now. It's just that none of those things have anything to do with homosexuality. Nothing going on in my life right now has absolutely anything to do with things gay-in-nature. .....It hit me, right as I was typing out that paragraph above: "I really am free of this thing." I'm free from homosexuality. Not free in the sense that I don't experience attraction to men -- I…

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I Love Jesus Too Much To Call Myself A Gay Christian

  1 month ago     47354 Views     Leave your thoughts  

There’s a new kind of Gay Christian. Most of us are aware of the Justin Lees and the Matthew Vines, but, unlike those guys and like myself, these new Gay Christians hold fast to the truth of Scripture regarding the sinfulness of homosexual behavior. They aren't out there practicing homosexual behavior. They aren't engaging in dating relationships with people of the same gender or seeking to do so. Celibacy is the path that they have chosen in light of their current sexual inclinations and their simultaneous, and stronger, desire to submit themselves to the Lordship of Christ. These people are most definitely my brothers and…

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The Vatican, Gays, and Church Membership

  2 months ago     6225 Views     Leave your thoughts  

The news coming from the Vatican concerning issues surrounding homosexuality and gay marriage has been flooding all of my news feeds this morning. I'm sure it's been all over yours as well. The Catholic Church, at this point, hasn't shifted in their theology or sexual ethic, but it seems as if there is a great desire among their leaders to shift in their approach toward the gay community. Part of me thinks, “Fantastic! Christians need to love and engage all walks and types of sinners, for the sake of the gospel.” But then another part of me thinks, “Uh oh.” My uneasiness…

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A Different Kind Of “Coming Out”

  2 months ago     6167 Views     Leave your thoughts  

I came busting out of the closet in 2009 in a desperate attempt to finally find some peace in my life. Some happiness. Some joy. Some freedom. But as most of you already know, the “freedom” that my coming out and adopting a gay identity bought me was a freedom that only brought me into more bondage. But, even so, I would do it all over again. Coming out, that is. I really do believe that finally letting the people around me glimpse into the secret parts of my life was a necessary step in my God-led journey toward the hope…

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Feeling unloved or unable to love? Keep looking at Jesus.

  3 months ago     3665 Views     Leave your thoughts  

I’m not going to go into the details of any situations or relationships in this blog, but I endured a pretty ridiculous amount of repetitive rejection in the earliest years of my life. Rejection that left dense scar tissue around my emotional capacities to love or feel loved. And I know I’m not an anomaly in this. Many, many people are short-changed in their introductions into this world. Many, many people experience tragically broken childhoods. I am just one of a multitude. As I trudged on from childhood into my teens and twenties, I never felt valued, wanted or enjoyed…

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The Killer of Faith

  3 months ago     4167 Views     9 Comments  

I think the most unsettling thing I’ve ever experienced is seeing someone that I thought knew Christ, walk away from Him. Even though I’ve only been a Christian for a relatively short time (4 years), I’ve already seen this happen a few times. It’s heart breaking on so many levels. And frightening. It creates dread in my own heart regarding my own salvation. I was nearly as sure of their faith in Christ as I am in my own faith in Christ, and here they are now. Faithless. Godless. Hopeless. A lot of these people I know openly talk about…

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Barely Believing: When Embracing The Bible Is Hard

  3 months ago     4514 Views     10 Comments  

I know that we deep thinkers (as we like to think of ourselves, anyway) tend to look at easy believing, "blind-faith" type people and call them ignorant or whatever, but honestly, part of me really envies them. I don’t mean the people that have never read the Bible and call themselves Christian simply because they’re American and they think that the two go hand in hand (they don’t). But I mean the people who actually know the Word of God and have an unwaveringly steady and unshakeable confidence in it. If I can be totally honest here (which is always…

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